Feeling Mediocre

Well, I've made the mistake of reading reviews of Unlocked. I couldn't help it. I was quite excited to see what people thought of it.

The reviews aren't bad, actually. They're generally quite positive....

But Her Father's Eyes isn't mentioned in any review that I've read. Other stories are mentioned as favourites. It's a bit like this:

The stories are all alright, but the stands outs are Title, Title, Title, not Her Father's Eyes.

Before everyone throws their arms in the air and gets mad at me, I'm not jealous of the other writers who are mentioned. I'm really very pleased for them, actually. They all worked hard and are amazingly talented authors.

I'm just feeling mediocre right now. Like I'm not good enough. Like I'm not going to make it.

Maybe I am a mediocre writer. Maybe I'm just not that good.

I don't think I'm terrible, or I wouldn't have gotten into the anthology in the first place. I'm just not great. This talent that I thought I had? Maybe I don't have enough of it.

I'm not saying this for pity comments either - so don't go spouting false praise to make me feel better. I'll just get suspicious. I don't like flattery.

I'll still keep trying, of course. There is only one way to improve, and that's to keep writing. I'm just much less certain than I was.

It'll pass. I'll get my confidence back, and this mood will be over.

Ah... the highs and lows of pursuing a dream.....

Alright. Everyone have a great weekend. I'll be back Monday, barring hell or high water!